I take everything too seriously :/

Hello, I'm not sure if this post will make sense at all, but I'm just looking to see if anyone has had similar experiences.

I (25F) always do the "right" thing. Now please wait a minute before judging. I don't mean I always do the right thing when interacting with people, making comments, etc. I've had plenty of "shit I shouldn't have said that or done that" moments. I mean I always do the right thing for making bigger decisions. Some examples:

• I never drank in high school because I was sooo scared of getting in trouble.
• I had friends in high school, but I wouldn't let myself hang out with them on school nights because I had to study. I studied a lot, did a lot of extracurriculars, had a job, etc.
• I majored in engineering in college because I knew it would be the reliable choice. I'm not passionate about it necessarily, but it pays well and I don't have to worry about making ends meet.
• I took a job in a undesirable location because it was with a good company.
• If I get a bonus, I immediately invest it and don't let "lifestyle creep" catch up.

That's just a few, but pretty much, I always do the "responsible" thing. I do what typical parents would want pretty much. Even in college when I started drinking, the few times I drank too much, I took myself home before getting sick or anything.

I don't have any crazy stories about being young and free in my 20s. Don't get me wrong, I do fun things with friends. I've been sky diving twice, travel to a lot of national parks, camped in a van in Iceland for my last trip, etc. It's more of the every day life that I'm almost too responsible. I can't let go of control and doing the "right" thing.

I've always known this about myself, but I'm realizing it more as I get older. My mom is so responsible, has a masters, and is the most caring mother ever, but turns out she dated a legit drug dealer before my dad. My grandma is literally the sweetest person to ever exist, turns out she was married before my grandpa. Now I'm not saying I want either of those things. I'm just trying to prove that pretty much everyone has lived enough they have things they regret.

The only thing I really regret is not spending time with my brothers and grandpa before they died. Even though I know I spent so much time with them. I just haven't done enough "stupid" things that I feel like an average 20 something year old would do. I know this is a dumb thing to complain about because I'm literally saying I'm too responsible, but I just wish I could let go of control for a little bit, be more care free, plan less, etc.