I still don’t know how to live normally after what I saw during the “pandemic”

I’ve been carrying this weight for a while, and I just need to let it out somewhere people might understand.

If even 10% of what we’ve learned about the harmful effects of the “vaccines” is true… then this wasn’t just a mishandled crisis. It was something else. Something planned. A kind of soft genocide, quietly carried out while people clapped and shamed each other into compliance. And the worst part? So many leaders, across so many nations, were at least somewhat in on it — whether actively or by turning a blind eye.

That realization has broken something in me. It’s not just anger or betrayal. It’s a deep sadness — for the people who were hurt, for those who still don’t see it, and for the world I thought I lived in. I feel like I’m grieving something invisible. My sense of reality. My trust. My sense of safety.

I don’t know how to move on from this. I don’t know how to pretend things are fine when they’re not. I try to live a normal life, but there’s always this weight in the back of my mind — a sense that nothing is what it seems anymore.

If anyone else is going through this, how do you cope? How do you rebuild yourself after something like this?

I don’t want to argue or convince anyone. I just want to feel less alone.