I paid a woman $100 to talk to me for a day. I loved it.

I'm an unfortunately unattractive man. Not appearance wise but I don't seem to have what it takes to make someone attracted to me. I paid someone to talk to me like they were my girlfriend and I'm ashamed by how much I ate up the attention. I hate myself but it was so easy to lie to myself and trick myself into believing that they were interested in me.