I never felt like a belonged

I’ve always felt lonely. I’m currently being tested for neurodivergence so idk if it’s that or maybe i was never socialized properly? And i have tons of friends, i know how to interact with ppl in order to form a closeness/bond. But I’ve never felt connected to anyone, like i can tell them anything and they would still care for me. I’ve never experienced loving a friend so deeply, knowing all their secrets and seeing them very often. Everyone i love except a couple don’t seem to reciprocate the love i have for them and if sucks. I spent my entire life searching for a place to belong, where it feels like home. I crave such deep and intimate relationships with my friends but i haven’t found it yet and it sucks. Is there anyway i can get over this?