I'm just a big loser

Riding in a taxi right now coming back from a casino and I have a gambling problem. Im $8000 in debt and just wasted another $800 like it was nothing.

I'm 30 - have a the best fiancée in the world and I just feel like a loser because she deserves way better than me.

It's so odd because on this drive back I realized I turned into my father. He was abig gambler and I told myself I would never turn that way.

But here I am. I feel so guilty and deserve all this guilt.