I'm 25 and I'm feeling left behind

hi!

i'm 25(f)and i'm a medical assisant in a hospital.

I still live at home(i pay for it!!) but plan on moving out this year.

I was diagnosed with Turners Syndrome at 17 and have to take medication. I struggle with infertility because of this, i look very young and i'm extremely petite but all in all, i'm super healthy. I also work out 3 times a week.

I've had a very bad middle/high school experience since I'm also very introverted/highly sensitive. I have a friends but I'm not that typical girl that gets drunk/high every weekend with 10 people. I would say that I'm very social and outgoing with the right people.

I went from being a C student in high school to graduating with an A in 2023 on my traineeship.

I also never been in a relationship(or done anything else for that matter,sex/kissing etc). It makes me feel stupid, invalid and just feeling like I'm losing my time. I've been struggling with my sexuality since I was 17 but realised and accepted that I'm probably queer/bisexual.

I feel like I'm not just missing out on that(having that teenage love) but also traveling. I'm seeing so many people at work, from strangers my age or on social media from my former classmates just seeing like everything. The US(NY), Australia, Thailand. Basically my dream destinations that I don't have anyone to travel with.

They have their life together. Moved out, got engaged, have seen half of the world in their mid-20s. I've only seen some parts of Germany, Greece(Crete, Thessaloniki, my hometown), Switzerland(Zurich, Montreux), Den Haag&Amsterdam, Rome and I've been to the UK(3x to London, Hastings and Brighton).

Comparing that makes me super jealous.

And I just feel bad. My vacation is coming up and I decided to stay home and do something fun here. I'm also seeing Dua Lipa in Hamburg with mom, so where gonna do a fun thing.

I don't know. I just feel like a child and so incompetent.