I hate my life

My life is boring an repetitive . I am currently writing this at 4 am in the morning, my brother crying and screaming. I am unable to sleep, he has been crying for 2 hours. Already, 2 hours into the day, I want to fall asleep forever . And then I go to school to people I hate and teachers I loathe. I hate everyone at school, all so loud and annoying. They know nothing of what I am going through. I then have to do 2 fucking exams at school that o never had time to proper for, with my parents expecting me to be the top of the class, when in reality, I'm in the middle. I have been in the middle since my first year in school. I then have to force myself to go to the gym and study, both of which I hate, and of every second I feel deppressed and tired. I hate everything, I am deppressed, I have bad friends, I don't know what to do. I want to self improve buy I don't know how . I hate everything that I cross paths with. I am alone .