I feel sad being alone

I just realised that I do feel sad being alone. I went on a holiday and i met this guy, a straight guy. I am a bi male. We met by chance somewhere in europe, he was travelling from asia. He was staying in another hotel. I spotted him on a busy square and approached him first to ask if he could take my photo. I usually do this as i often travel on my own. We started chatting and to make long story short, we hit it off and we would always meet everyday for coffee, photo ops, breakfast, lunch, dinner for about several days.

I enjoyed his company so much that when i was about to decide where to go next and he suggested i go with him to his next destination in europe, i agreed quickly. We agreed to stay in same hotel room. I knew it was a mistake! But i couldn’t resist.

That was the most wonderful week i ever had in my life. Writing this now, i can’t help but cry that it ended. We did everything together, going here and there, every meal, every photos. And yes, we had sex. He had a gf back home but the sexual tension in the room was too much for him that he caved in. Maybe i was too flirty lol.

Now, i am back home and i look at all the photos/videos we took, i feel sad that i dont see him anymore in person.

I miss every morning when i will tease him, we smile, talk, go for breakfast and of course, being intimate.

We had a few disagreements on silly things but looking back, it’s kind of why i miss him. We just met and we were already having disagreements and we make up afterwards. I will say it now, i fell in love with him.

It’s less than a week since we parted ways and we text each other. The point of this post is that it’s such a wonderful feeling to share your life, even for just a few days, with someone else.

I keep reminiscing our days together, i look at the photos and videos we took, and i feel happy and sad at the same time. The saddest part is that I maybe the only one feeling this cos now he’s back with his gf. Every time i get a text from him, i feel happy and feel better. I dont know how to move on from this though..