I feel like I understand why some people randomly push bad vibes

This is only one among many valid theories. But I believe all ideas come back to not being humble enough. And everyone will eventually be humbled to a greater extent through life, in one way or another.

I rideshare and have a varied friend group. I also have wildly different characters in my family. In each of these 3 groups, whether a stranger or someone I’ve known my whole life, there’s always someone that will eventually put me down. Someone that will make me feel small so they can feel superior. And how I use to do the same thing in subtle ways.

I’m 34 now and can’t imagine myself doing this, unless it’s somehow deserved, since I find it to not only be useless but the place it comes from is so misguided. I find that people do it for a sense of reprieve. That they’re going through it, but they also feel entitled about what they’re going through. People can’t admit to themselves what they’re going through is truly fucked up, and much of it is probably out of their control. Add to this the idea they believe they deserve much more than this and it’s something that can’t be navigated, and you then find individuals lashing out at strangers or friends for no reason at all.

I pity this behavior now, because if no one suffered, we wouldn’t do this to each other. I believe that I’ve been so incredibly humbled since being laid off and having to rideshare about 60hrs a week, that no one’s attitude could bother me. It’s a strange super power that I’ve noticed when having a passenger, for instance, that won’t acknowledge that I said hi or makes silly demands as I’m driving. Like ‘can’t you drive faster?’ or ‘why don’t you get a better job?’. The old me would be fuming from these questions, now I believe that I’m just the unlucky soul to be the temporary punching bag from a person that can’t manage their problems the right way.

It has been an important lesson for me to be humbled this way. I find that unless someone is legitimately crazy or has a reason to attack you, these bad vibes are just a reflection of internal conflict. It is something again to pity and know that they are on their own path, and you don’t have to accept that energy.

Fighting against this energy isn’t defending yourself but just accepting it in another form. You’re letting someone’s ignorance affect you when you can simply ignore it. I wish for everyone I know and as many people out there to discover this, as it’s given me the strength to accept everyone for who they are, the good and the bad.