1 month ago
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Not in a playful sense.. in a development sense.
Seriously I don't think my brain has developed correctly.
Im 32 and I feel exactly the same way I did when i was 18. I dont think I have grown much. I still have the same insecurities. Still keep making the same mistakes. I keep disappointing everyone around me.
I dont want to be this way and I want to be better but I dont know how. Other people seem to have "grown up" in some way. Whether through personal efforts or lessons learned i dont know. But I dont seem to be growing at all.
I dont feel like a "real adult" with their head on straight and making good decisions and planning their life out.
At Thanksgiving last week, my 18 and 19 year old cousins who are in college were speaking and they are clearly so much more put together and goal focused and driven in life. Im 14 years older just sitting there awkwardly not knowing what to say and having people avoid me because Im clearly the black sheep elephant in the room.
Im tired of this I just want to be normal..
What am I doing wrong?
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