I don't know what to do in life, I feel like I am lost.

Hello everyone. I (female 21) am currently having life crisis. I use to have a goal in life and I still want to pursue that but I don't know what is happening to me from the past few months. I feel like I don't know what to do anymore. I use to have a job previously but I left it for the purpose of my studies and my parents agreed to me at that time. I left that job about 2 months ago. I recently gave an exam for a study program. Honestly my exam wasn't that great. It was just fine.

I have also gained few pounds recently, I want to lose weight but I can't help anything. I don't have any disorders in case you will point that out. I don't have any disorders. I am completely fine.

But I guess everyone have this stage in life. And I want to grow. I cannot sit like this. I want to be productive and want to fulfil my dream.

Today I even took a step forward, I started doing what's best to do for my goal. But I feel like something is still not there. Like something is missing.

I really don't know, what to do now.

I had my 21 birthday, 2 days ago. Everyone was asking me "what did you wished for?" And honestly my mind was blank that time. I didn't wished for anything.

And for context I am from a Typical Asian family. Nowadays my mother is asking me to look for a job. As I cannot sit like this as home. But I don't want to do anything.

Also, I feel like I am no one's priority. You ask me why. I have never dated anyone in my life ask me why , I never find someone. I only have two bestfriend, one of them is dating a guy and is happy. Second one is studying and also started dating someone. I am not jealous of them, but sometimes I feel like I have no one to talk.

This is why I am writing here.

I want to help myself. I seriously need advice.