I changed

I changed. Stuff happened in my childhood which wasn’t great but I still got through life. I was a bit of an introvert but I still was good at public speaking and had confidence (my self esteem was meh though). Well, now I’m probably the worst version of myself. I workout regularly and have a balanced diet…so I guess that part improved. Everything else is just bad. For a short presentation in Uni I can look confident but I’m emotionally a wreck. My ocd makes me overthink everything and my confidence is pretty much none existent. I had “social“ batteries as an introvert which I was able to recharge but now I can’t. In the past I wanted to work hard, make money and travel. Now I just want live in a silent place somewhere (in nowhere) with a boring job and just be alone. Im honestly hoping that my end comes maybe a bit earlier….Funny how life can change depending on what person is looking at it