I cant have fun unless I accomplish something in life

23/M Im sorry if this is not the correct subreddit for this post and please forgive me if it isn’t. I recently have been wanting to solo travel for a month and have been so excited to travel but home situations and guilts and personal issues have been crawling up on me and my brain tells me that I can’t have fun unless i have achieved X, Y and Z in life and this stops me from being happy and life has just been so stressful lately Inoften look at my friends and often get compared to them by my parents to show that they are doing something with their life but im not and “why am i wasting time travelling when i should be taking action with my life theres nothing to celebrate” and these thoughts don’t let me be happy and i planned this trip to clear my mind but i dont want to spend all this money and be stressed abroad thinking about how much i’m far behind in life compared to others what is your guys advice i hope you can help me Thank you for listening.