I am more than my pain

I feel like I'm drowning in darkness, losing sight of who I am. So I'm here to remind myself of the simple things that make me who I am.

I love pink. I love seashells. I'm really good at drawing. I love skulls and bones. I love all animals, but crows, frogs, bears, and cats hold a special place in my heart. I love moss. I love silly movies and shows. I love the feeling of laughing uncontrollably.

I'm afraid of butterflies and crickets, not because they're scary, but because they're so fragile, and I fear crushing them. I love forget-me-nots; I'm trying to grow one. I love the moon. I love candles. My favorite color is green. I love mushrooms. I love rainbows.

Sometimes, I struggle to find a reason to stay. So here are a few things worth holding on for:

I want to kiss a kitten. I want to ride a horse. I want to climb a tree. I want to befriend a crow. I want to dance in the rain. I want to read a book by candlelight while drinking chamomile tea. I want to buy a pink dress. I want to fall in love.

Most of all, I just want to feel happy one more time.