How to stop feeling dirty after being used by a guy?

The feeling sets in at random moments. I’ve been used sexually by multiple guys that don’t care about me and I just can’t stop feeling dirty. I feel like I get used and try to numb myself so I end up seeing someone new that just happens to do the same thing. And I’m lonely so I keep letting it happen but I feel so horrible. None of these guys ever take me out, I use hinge and everytime a guy does like me, the first thing he says is usually about my nice lips which you can imagine they mean it sexually and want me to go down on them. They usually ghost me and stop talking to me after the deed too. I really try not to care but I just feel so worthless.

For context, it’s all completely voluntary and consensual. It’s more like them telling me something about wanting rough oral sex with me and when I allow it and they’re done, cumming in my mouth and then never speaking to me again or leaving immediately they cum all over me. I don’t even get to cum most times and they’re just done once they’ve cum. It makes me so sick. Like I hate thinking about it. There was a guy that also slapped me one time without even knowing whether I was into that or not and he came all over me when he was done and blocked me after. Another guy told me some pretty aggressive details of what he wanted to do to me and blocked me when I was not open to letting him do that to me. I know it’s just a hookup at the end of the day and I shouldn’t care but it really does get to me

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