How to be happy without sexual validation from the other gender?

Hi guys, I'm a man (virgin, never even hold hands), and due to various reasons I've taken decision to stop pursuing being in a relationship with a woman, I took this decision for the sake of my mental health, and after years of working towards this, I always failed so I wanted to move on to a better/healthier stage of my life.

I'm working and studying so I can have a data analysis career and hopefully have a better quality of life, I have friends, and even though I'm defective in various personal areas due to some genetical issues, I've little by little been able to "love myself" or whatever that means.

From a logical standpoint, I would consider myself asexual, the idea of having sex makes me feel tired and terrified, so living without sex sounds good to me.

BUT

BUT, there's an issue, I think it's my ego, it hurts my ego to know that I've never been desired in this way and that most likely I never will.

As you can see this feels very contradictory, I've taken the decision to stop ever trying to have sex, and I can defend this answer very strongly, I know that it's the most responsible decision.

But this dumb ego of mine is making me feel bad, is like having a rock inside my shoe, sure, I can keep walking towards other goals, but I can still feel that rock, hurting me with every step.

So with that said, what advice do you have so I can maybe have a healthier ego when it comes to this sexual validation stuff, just to be clear I'm not putting relationships in a pedestal, and also just because some people have had bad experiences with sex doesn't make me feel better. I wanted to say it before people start commenting that, I appreciate the sentiment, but yeah no hahaha.

Thank you so much for reading and for the support.