How 2 life

How the fuck? I mean, I’ve only been doing it for 26 years, but I’m at a point now where I’m just like, how the fuck? I know there will be more “how the fuck”’s to come but this one seems so significant and I can’t find a way out of it. Normally I’m pretty good at knowing things are temporary and life is ultimately beautiful but MAN it’s been a year and so long since I’ve had that perspective. So, how do we truly know that everything will be ok? How do we achieve what we want if we have no idea of the steps it takes to get there? How do we continue on with life when times are so down and demanding? I’m not suicidal by any means, but the older I get, and more cynical I get, the more I can understand it. How do we turn ourselves around and push forward in life after we’ve become a person we never thought we would be?