Guys I regret that I lost asuper dream job just because I didn't had the gut of saying that I will join after graduation 😞

I was in last year in college, got selected in dream company with highest package in the whole college. Was feeling above the sky. But in the month of December I got a call that I am supposed to do internship and then I will get the offer letter if university allow internship but my university do not allow internship but due to my cowardness of losing job I faked that my university allow internship. Then from February onwards I joined the company which was high demanding and no work life balance, poor communication. In the next 3 months I was dead as hell as all my things were messed up ... exams, home renovation, family fights, rude and uncooperative manager which lead to hating my job and eventually I didn't tried my best thinking that I will work in another company but now it's been 6 month of unemployment 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔