guys am i the only person who has almost no friends and has no bestfriends

i am 15M and to be honest, I haven't had a good friend all my life, every friend I had either got tired of me or something made us not be friends anymore... and I was watching "when Marnie was there" and i literally cried, cuz i want a friend like that, I wanna have a bestfriend.

idk if I'm just being weak or what but yeah, just wanted to share this