grateful for the life i’ve been given

i struggled so much with my mental health for the past year. i genuinely felt as though i wouldn’t make it past january, but here i am. my plans with my friend group fell through, yet i don’t find myself upset. i spent the night watching movies with my family, and now im sitting on the couch with my boyfriend watching harry potter while we down a couple glasses of wine. i’m slightly drunk, but for the first time in ~13 months, being drunk isn’t accompanied by a horrible, heavy feeling that weighs me down. im just so grateful? my boyfriend is a little sloshed and can’t stop telling me how much he loves me, i can’t stop looking at the kitten we adopted together and admiring how big he’s gotten, and i just can’t help but feel incredibly grateful for the life i’ve built. i’m excited for the new year, and i feel as though i’ve built a foundation within my own mental health that will allow me to pursue and obtain whatever goals i set for myself this year. i also just have the overwhelming understanding that the only way out is through, and whatever terrible, awful situations/feelings that you endure, they will eventually subside (or disappear) so long as you don’t give up on yourself. so yeah, i’m a little drunk and silly, and i don’t have a ton of earthly wisdom to pass on, but i know suffering, and i know perseverance, and i know that all of you are capable of wading through whatever waters life soaks you with (im more drunk than i’ve let on). kisses!