Generally positive gal always anxious on New Years

I'm generally a very positive and sunshine-y women however since the passing of my Dad early 2016, I get very anxious every new year and I feel like when everyone is saying have a great year etc they're jinxing me 😂😂

I feel like such a pessimist which is very unlike me. I'm not sure how to get over this weird fear.

Rant over 😱