feeling… wholesome.

Everything is simultaneously happening… it’s so much. I’m hurt but I’m healing. I’m sad but I’m happy. I am mindful and finally feel like I can stand on my own two feet without anyone’s validation or assurance. It’s my first time being single in a long time and I feel so good… I couldn’t imagine this before. I was codependent and the defenses I used to survive are no longer serving me. I’ve taken account my shitty ways and am improving every single day. I’m almost 10 years into being a mother and I’m finally feeling like ‘okay I can do this’. My heart is so full… but it aches when I get in my head and I’m not where I want to be and I can’t do everything I want for me and my children exactly when we want to. But I strive and keep my head up everyday. Even with the push back I get from family. I’ve felt invalidated for so long and I’m just now healing and remembering and learning more of who I am. I’m so blessed to be alive, to have and be in my right mind. I’m so blessed to be able to think, talk, walk, work & take care of and teach my children. I am happy but I am tired… I know God has more for me and my daughters. I know it. Even through every trial and through every unfortunate circumstance… I know that it’s going to be for the betterment of my wellbeing. All I can do is keep going, stay strong and stay focused. If you made it this far, I appreciate your time. Thank you 💗 I hope you have a great day and spread love wherever you are!!