Failing in college.

I tried posting this in the college subreddit but I didn’t have enough karma or whatever. I’m not sure where else to post this so I’ll just post this here.

I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this and I really feel I need to get this off my chest. I’m 21 about to be 22, and in my first year of college studying electrical engineering. Long story short, I failed one class first semester, and I’m probably gonna end up failing 4/5 of my classes in second semester. I have pretty bad anxiety and I wasn’t prepared for how fast paced college was, and it’s my fault, I didn’t reach out for help when I needed it, didn’t ask my professors to re-explain topics I didn’t get, and when they would ask if I understood, I would just say yes. I did reach out to some of my classmates for help, but just felt so ashamed to keep going to them asking and asking for more help or even asking for the answers on some occasions. I know I should’ve just gotten over my anxiety and gone to my professors for help, but I didn’t. When I did build up enough courage and tell myself to go in for help, I would overthink it so much and believe I’d just be wasting their time going over things they covered weeks ago. I just don’t know what to do anymore, it’s the last week and only have exams left. It just feels like the whole world is crumbling down on top of me. I know I’m still kind of young but I just can’t shake that feeling that I already failed in life. I’m even afraid to tell parents or my siblings about what’s going on. My mother regularly asks how I’m doing in school, and I would just tell her it’s going good, when really this is the most I’ve struggled in my life. I just feel so alone and lost. There’s so much more I want say but I probably should be studying right now. Thanks for reading and sorry if this is all over the place, but I just can’t seem to think straight.