Ever felt that life gave more than you deserved and you just can't value it enough to keep it

Recently, when I retrospect I just look at everything and I realise I got everything more than I deserved that too in the first go and w/o much effort. But I just couldn't value and respect it enough and in search of even better I lost it. And when I realise that what I had was probably the best it's just too late. And, it just continues to be so.

The guilt is just way too much to carry. Feeling like everything was served on a plate and just because it was, you thought that hustling hard can get you better. Even if you do get better in some aspects, it's just mirrors and smoke. You already had the things that matter and now you don't. It's painfully high guilt.