Empty soul

What do you do in life when everything has become bland and lifeless to me I work and care for my pets ive done the same shit for 2 years now mass pastime of video games sometimes feels like it's wearing away ive never done much with my life im not overweight or ugly I didn't go to parties or go to prom I have one friend I talk to in person and no online friends I dated once when I was 16 shortly and that was it tried apps lol they fake its hard to bring myself to do things and i have ungodly horrible social anxiety everyday I feel like I'm closer to the edge and the sad thing about it is I'm coming to terms with it