Do you know what i mean

I live in a small city where ive spent basically all my 19 years of living , and ive never had the privilege of traveling overseas or anywhere else at all , and ever since i was in middle school i craved liberation , i wanted to travel the world and never come back to this city if possible, but now that im a little older and that i did get a taste of what i wanted , im not sure i can live alone or that i can leave for good , does anyone here get what i mean?