Do you ever feel like life is just overly complicated

Maybe it’s the hard times the easy times it changes every time sometimes I wish I wasn’t alive then I wish I just stay alive I just sit in silence and rethink my life and I don’t know it’s a confusing life I think that if I where to just disappear I wouldn’t make a difference in anyone’s life and it makes me sad then I realize does it matter at the end when eventually everything will be forgotten its like if life is dice you roll and you either make a impact or you don’t but would it matter since no one is bound to remember you for maybe the next 10 20 or even 100 years from now it’s just I know bound to make no difference in someone’s life but what can I do it’s just the way life’s going to be I’m just going to cherish life for as long as I can and just be myself.