Breaking point

I need a place to rant:

I recently read “God has made you strong this year, but next year he will make you happy”.

I graduated this year and went straight to working. I did this because I have to save up for my future plans which is to study abroad and get a masters degree. I have set my goals straight and I really want to save up so I can support myself there. But as I started working, my mom would always ask me to buy her things and all that stuff. I have already explained to her that I needed to save for my future and she already knows that I have plans on leaving. But she would often say that I am selfish and that’s really difficult to hear. Then recently, she has been borrowing money when I know for a fact that she’s being given money by my dad, because my mom has actually never worked her entire life. It is all a mystery to us where all of the money goes and per my dad, she would just always get mad when he tried to ask where all the money is going because she really gets a lot. Now, I just don’t know what to do because I am so stressed out with work and she has never even supported me with it or asked me how I was. I am starting to think that maybe in the future I will just be a piggy bank that she will crack open and I just don’t know what to do. It’s so depressing to think that I have to constantly deal with this. I just really hope that she realizes that she should be living below her means because we all have to save up for future expenses.

I just wanna cut ties with everyone at this point and just live abroad all by myself. My family is really becoming my main point of stress and anxiety and it’s becoming a very difficult place to be in since there’s no escape.

I really pray that there will be light at the end of the tunnel because all I can do now is remain hopeful that all will work out fine. I really hope I become better and happy next year.