35 and fearful of the future. Makes me want to, ya know..

I feel as-if I can’t count on myself.

I feel as-if I’m always like 15 years behind where I should be.

Running out of time.

No current job, no partner, no money.

I try. But obviously just not enough.

I don’t think I’m made for this timeline, or society.

I’ve always felt different.

3 years sober. Just ran a marathon. Recently in remission for Rheumatoid Arthritis. And medicated for ADHD. Those are some positives.

But ultimately. I feel I can’t achieve much in this life. That ‘normal’ people seem to do so effortlessly.