30f generally content, except

Hi, 30f, living at home (medical reasons). I am literally so happy not to have to deal with a family of my own, I truly have never wanted kids, I have a partner but we’re long distance and we don’t plan to see one another for some time and I enjoy it that way though generally I am insular, independent and fair best on my own (do not misunderstand me, I enjoy this relationship I just enjoy my alone time).

I live with many people but we keep to ourselves and I’m typically in my room, reading, watching tv or writing. Otherwise, I’m yapping on the phone to my girl or napping. It’s a good, simple life.

Even as I write this, I become more and more convinced that I am completely comfortable living just the way I am.

But, I know, my mother is not always going to be here and it’s not as though she has set me up with some trust meaning I will have to find a career.

Throughout all of my medical struggles (I am diagnosed bipolar) I managed to graduate with a degree from a top ten school (though admittedly in philosophy) and even spent a semester in law school.

I have no professional work history so returning to law school seems to be what I have to do. This lack in career is what grates at me and I know must be attended to sooner rather than later.

I suppose I’m grateful to not be completely directionless.

Though, it is clear that I must grow up.

Anyways, I just want others to commiserate…

Thanks!