23F. I feel horrible about the fact that I have got no friends from school

So I spent 12 years in just clearing tests, learning lessons with no friends.

I was always proactive in learning and being in school, always distancing myself from being sucked into gossiping groups. In the last year, I realised I'm just strong alone, with no real ally.

But it really feels so bad, the school friends I have, even through social media, don't really engage or something.

I'm a solid friend, and if I'm friends with someone, i won't bat an eyelash to cross countries for them.