20 burnt out and over it

Dropped out of community college because I need more money theres Car insurance,rent,bills this damn cat that has to eat no grain organic tender morsels, medical then the cost for the medication. And as soon as you turn around there it is again. I think I should just go live in a national park and go full breaking bad or walk into a lake and sit at the bottom. Most of us are just a couple hundred or thousands dollars away from being homeless like holy shit I finally understand what Lenin was talking about. All I got is a 24pack to get me through this shit and ofc it’s corona so it’s like half my grocery budget. Is this life for the plebs, scratch offs and coronas until the glorious day I get hit by a city bus.