19F lost

I’m a 19F and did not grow up in a safe family. I came from a hoarders house with a mother who left all the time to gamble and focused her attention on her bfs than me. She has no real career and lost everything to gambling now I have nothing to fall back on. I’m living with my ex and his family, they have money and a nice house but I am so unhappy and don’t even know what to do with my life or how to get out. I’m not happy with my ex but he understands my situation with my family so he knows not to let me go back there, but I feel trapped. I’m unemployed as well and no one in the panhandle of Florida seems to be hiring except they only hire teenagers at fast food restaurants. I’m an extremely attractive woman, but I’m so unhappy and lost in life and it seems there is no way out. I thought about onlyfans but my ex keeps telling me it’s not a good idea, for future careers and that it will destroy my professional image.