16790 more days before im 80 (34M)

I’m counting the days till I’m old and just suppressing desire till then. I’ve decided to not chase anything I want in life. I won’t go on dates or make friends, or go out. I intend to work, watch tv, and sleep, and mark each day off my calendar until I’ve made it. If something happens along the way to take me off course of the goal of being very old, fine, as long as it’s a day of minimal effect. My aim is to reduce temptation, desire, attachment, of any kind, in the form of stimuli, to reduce the suffering along the way to this goal.

I work out alone in order to not see beautiful women.

I don’t go out in order to not feel too good about experiences, and thus crave more.

I watch a lot of tv to give me just enough enjoyment to maximize my ability to work, and feel satisfied.

I don’t seek friendship so as to not crave more human contact in the form of a partner.

I try to eat the same foods to maintain a certain body weight, and thus not crave.

I abstain from sex in any form to reduce temptation for a partner and attachment.

So far so good. 46yrs seems like a long time. But I couldn’t ever imagine being my current age and can’t remember how long it took to get here. If I keep maintaining just enough satisfaction and suppressing everything I want, I should have a very peaceful, minimal life, without any drama or consequences.