Women find me disgusting, what's a healthy way to cope with that?

Hi guys, well, as the title says.

It's as simple as that, how can I cope with being in this position, obviously I've already tried going to the gym, therapy all of that, for the love of god don't give the same copy-and-paste advice.

I don't want to be in a relationship, I just want to know how to cope with being so disgusting for women, I want to tackle this so I can be at peace with myself, thank you.

And I repeat, I don't want, I DON'T WANT A RELATIONSHIP, thank you.

I just want to be able to forgive myself for being in this situation.