Where my life is going ?

So I'm 33 year old female ... Married 2 yrs back ... Because of financial instability I'm scared of having kids n at the same time I'm overweight .. i worked in animation industry for 7 years n in that 7 yrs i didn't get hike because of COVID n then I got new job someother department worked for old salary itself things where deficult in life financial bcz im the breadwinner of my family... Somehow I ask n got some hike from office ... Somehow things wear getting cleared n come my marriage n then layoff because of writers strike etc etc etc ... I tried to get job in different field but because I have to start fresh no one is giving me job ... It's so deficult to just live life this ... Can anyone guide me what i should to so that I wil stick with it and change my life ... I want to see the world learn few things n many more but I'm just stuck ... Someone help me