what should i do with my life?

hi everyone, definitely scared to post this due to the amount of people in this subreddit, but this website has helped me tremendously in the past with remedial things, so i’m hoping to get some help on a much bigger topic (see title).

here is some context: i am 30 years old. i have a beautiful girlfriend who i love very much who i hope to one day soon make my wife. my life is great on that end. this definitely was not the case for most of my 20’s, so i’m incredibly grateful that life finally shifted in my favor in that regard, and i hope it stays that way.

here is the problem: i am a creative with pretty much a decade of music production experience, producing, writing, recording, all of that. i’m confident in my skill set when it comes to music, but over the past couple of years, i have become increasingly interested in other things: such as streaming (in the sense of live stream gaming) creating video essays about topics i’m interested in, making funny commentary videos, etc. it’s weird, because on my day to day, i have much more interest to do the aforementioned things, but i still have a much deeper love for music, if that makes sense. sometimes i will get the creative spark to make music, but i feel like it fizzles out a lot sooner than it used to. i have this weird feeling to set up a stream schedule and do it every morning, but then i’m scared to do that because i feel like it would drive too much attention away from making music, and i feel guilty about it. but the idea of waking up, working out, then coming back home to stream sounds so fun for some reason. idk how to explain it.

i have a corporate job, but i definitely can’t see myself doing anything long term other than a creative pursuit. i know the more obvious choice would be to “do them all”, but i feel like if you want to make a career out of something, you have to dedicate most of your time and energy to it. hence why i’m stuck on choosing one.

sorry for the insanely long post. this has been bothering me for quite some time and i’m starting to feel so helpless and stuck. any advice is greatly appreciated. i love you all 🤍