What should I do in this situation?

There is this one person who is really nice to me even though she is far away from me. I'm not saying that it's a bad thing, but on the contrary, someone who came to me as if from a dream and offered herself. She is a very special, somewhat unusual person, first of all, who knows what she wants. She is a little older than me by four years, leaning towards her 30s at least, while I am half that age, to be exact 25. It seems to me that this is everything I dream about, as if I am living a boy's dream because she has never disappeared despite the fact that I am much more withdrawn and it is harder for me to admit some things and emotions. Although I told her after 6 months of online dating because that is the only way we know each other, unfortunately still because she is from another continent, she somehow understands me. Somehow it seems to me that she is a person who prays a lot to God and who leans towards some beautiful things.

She always supports and encourages me in many things, even though I have some huge downfalls where when I tell her that I want to be alone, she understands and doesn't create drama like some close people next to me who wanted to make me sad. It's a wonderful feeling, of course we've known each other for a very long time from an application where letters are sent strictly, and later I asked her about the social network and that's how we started writing. And that writing is kind of fun because I see that it hasn't disappeared, although I have an inner fear, but I'm slowly opening up and that makes me happy, but it also scares me that it won't disappear like all those from the past.

She always prays to God for me as she says and she wants me to always be happy no matter what happens between us. She said that she cried for me every time it made me sad and that her time passed quickly. Somehow, it's as if she's already connected with me, but the other way around, I'm not going to lie. But I'm scared of the fact that maybe I'm not a perfect person, while she says that it's completely normal and that I can break free over time and she doesn't force me, at least in that area of ​​opening up to make it happen very quickly, which impresses me immensely.

Everything about her is perfect and I like her because she's a sincere person and her emotions are pure, she tells me very directly that if it were the other way around, she would never write to me and the like. And that makes me very happy. But I'm interested in a person who prays to God, believes in me more than I do in myself and who constantly expresses love directly, is that the person I can tell everything to, the ups and downs in my head? I've told her some things and I was afraid of being judged, but of course she didn't do that to me, but of course, I'm simply afraid that it won't disappear like everything else. But I see that she puts in a huge amount of effort, effort and time to the extent that she responds to messages quickly, waits for me when I go to sleep, when I come home normally I answer in a timely manner and all that.

Do you bother around such a person? I can't describe what I feel, and these are all beautiful things, but I'm afraid that they will disappear, even though she is, for example, as far away as I am from her, but we trust each other enormously. Should I call her sometime, we talk directly over the call, she is very shy just like me, but she knows how to love with words and gives attention that I really need. I told her that I often cry, I thought she would judge me, but she didn't.