Wanna end it sometimes

Maybe I’m just chemically imbalanced, maybe my brain is all fucked up, maybe I let the bullshit in my life from childhood to now slide and it’s just now haunting me, maybe it’s a combination of all of it, but I’m ready to go.

Nobody should have to live like this everyday, with constant pain in their heart. Constant reminders of what you lack. I hate being here, the fact that my ultimatum is either misery while alive or zero consciousness at all is fucked up but I guess that just comes with the life I didn’t ask for.