The left alone...

I never felt this left alone in my entire life. I feel very left alone from everyone and from the entire world. No one is excited to see me or talk to me. Maybe it's cause I was always struggling with my mental health issues and everything, I feel like even the world is tired of me. Only person who wants to talk to me and see me is my mom. But for a long time this thought has been going on in my mind, will my mom talk to me or consider me, even I'm not successful or I'm not the daughter she is proud of ? I hope she will. I strongly believe my mom will love me no matter what. I hold onto to that belief. Cause every other person I meet or surrounded by, expect something from me to be loved. I overworked, burnt out and exhausted to the core of always trying to fit in. I need break from life. A month or two of doing nothing. During that time, I dont wanna meet or talk to anyone. I really need a break more than anything right now. Everything feels so tiring. I dont even know why I'm typing all this. I dont want ppl saying " be positive, take responsibility, life is hard, love yourself " . I'm so tired of hearing all these. I dunno what is real anymore. I think I'll be fine if I completely go insane.