Sometimes, fuck being smart and reasonable

Maan, I've been the most reasonable person my whole life, engineering degree, investment at 26 for a house, saving money, working hard both at work and at the gym, strict diet...

Fuck it this month I iust spent all my money paying for restaurant, drinks for my friends and brother so nobody cares about money, driving for all I want (something I love to do), eating without counting calorirs... Feels so liberating.

Back to work tomorrow, back to being reasonable. Idk how people can live life like this and put a stop on it while being on the edge. I have to stop doing it altogether if I don't want to be tempted to enjoy it without limits.