Quarter Life Crisis

I’m a 19-year-old male, and my life feels stagnant. Every day, I wake up searching for a purpose, but I find none. I’m planning to attend college next September 2025 for Computer and Electric Engineering because I’m passionate about becoming an embedded systems engineer. The timeline between now and September 2025 is long and includes taking my college entrance exams. I yearn to leave this country as soon as possible. This aspiration likely won’t be fulfilled until after college, when I’ll pursue a master’s degree in America or obtain an H-1B work visa.

To stand out, I need to create a strong portfolio and resume that either earns me a full ride scholarship in graduate college or lands me a good job in America. Over the past few months, this realization has become increasingly clear, and I feel stuck. I’m undecided about my major, I’m not proficient in low-level programming languages, and I have no knowledge of electrical components or their functioning. Consequently, I wake up each day with a desire to discover my potential.

Initially, I thought learning EECE on my own would be a waste of time since I’ll be pursuing it in college anyway. However, I still feel like I’m not making any progress towards my goals. I don’t work because my parents fully support me financially. In fact, I’ve never had a job. I want to develop financial discipline, budgeting skills, and gain some sense of independence and autonomy.

It’s important to note that I’m not a bad person. I don’t cause trouble, I don’t associate with the wrong crowd, and I have ample time. I spend my days browsing the web, searching for a purpose and wasting time. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.