Probably the most depressing Christmas I’ve had so far and it’s my fault

25m. As the past few Christmases have gotten less magical and more stress, this year has been the roughest I’ve had. Basically, I have to move back in with my parents (relatively toxic household) until I graduate college in a little under 2 years. My woman will be living in our apartment, luckily she has a cousin who can stay with her to help with the bills. I’m moving in because I’m not able to work as much as I usually do because of classes and clinicals taking up most of my time and I’m not able to afford the full half of my bills for the apartment. Along with that, with how crazy school and me trying to work full time and all my money going to bills, I haven’t been able to afford a gift for my family or had much time to make or think about a gift for them. I feel like such a failure of a son and a failure of a man to my lady. This isn’t just me sulking and trying to self-pity because I will definitely take this time and opportunity to save as much money as I can and pay off the debt I owe, I just needed to let it out and tell someone.