old crush returned after breakup.

First of a little background.

2019 i was 13M i had a rough home life and wasn’t in school much so i had nobody, I played video games everyday pretty much all day, in summer of 2019 I met a girl online. problem was she was 22, we still talked and flirted for a couple months before we told each other ages by then i was 14, after she found out my age we still played and talked all the time but we flirted a little less. I played with her until fall of 2020. February 2020 I met my dream girl over Snapchat/facebook we had a beautiful love story. We were together at 14, first real date and kiss at 15 moved in together at 16 lost our first baby at 17 and had our special rainbow baby at 18. planed to marry next year at 20 and 19, but after she left I reconnected with the girl that was once too old for me. She was my first crush, her voice was so comforting and healing at times and she was older which was hot asf. maybe losing my dream girl means i get the girl who knows exactly what to say. The girl that has been right about every single thing i have ever told her, the girl that really knows how to make me feel okay no matter what problem i seem to have.

But what if I move on and lose my girl forever:(