Nothing just a rant

You ever sit there and realize how alone in life you are. I'm 29 years old and I've never had friends, I've had acquaintances but I've never been close to anyone to call them a friend. Still to this day, I don't have anyone I can just go see and hang out with. I've also been a single mother for 9 and a half years now, and I don't have anyone that will take my child for just a night or day or a few hours so I can have some time to myself that doesn't include me working the next day or night. Like yes my family will take my child, but that's only for work. And I'm really not exaggerating that I have absolutely no one I can turn to.

Today, I was accidentally added to a group that of my siblings and I seen how they talk about me and say mean things about me. Saying that I don't care about my child, how I don't deserve my child.

I just don't know how to deal with life anymore, but I guess I shall keep trucking through for my child I'm the only person they have.