Need Help

I am AL from Morocco i am 22 nd i live in china i came to study but after 5 months i decided to quit and do a business with a chinese man but i've gained nothing now i have only 3 months of the visa until march, but the last month i met a girl online from my country and i really love her and she do the same and i feel like she's the one for me.

Now i am here in china living in a bad routine i have no mood to do anything, i am doing an online bachelor and not even attending the classes , my mental health is so down and i feel dep""ssed and i don't even know what to do should i stay here away from the people i love or go back to that country that i don't really like but with the people i love by my side, i am stuck in a loop which i am afraid of everything, i am afraid to take a decision and regret it and afraid to not take a decision and regret not to, i have no idea what i want in life anymore i don't have sui''dle thought or something no no, i just want to be happy with the person i love i want to build a happy life with her but i guess that money matters, i want to do something with joy something i love without stress without anything.

well actually i love the life here but i feel so lonely i feel like i don't belong here but at the same time i feel free, i want to be with the person i love but i am afraid i won't be capable to love her the way she wanted even tho i know i love her more than anything in this world and my health mentally and physically is so bad i am so skinny and i lost so much weight and i really don't know what to do.

I was happy and excited but after several months i feel empty and so depr""ssed and i don't have a clear path i don't know how to make money i don't know how to be happy even the games i used to play don't feel the same, i feel like i wanna sleep for 10 years i even hate to llok to myself in the mirror i really don't know what to do i am really lost i am scared