Myself is my home

I just wanted to be home. Where I call myself home. I don’t want it anymore to be anybody be my home but me having me as my home.

I am just so done.

After all, I know I’ve got nothing to hide. I did all my best. But I guess, it wasn’t enough. And I am so done.

It is and was 9 years. Full of roller coasters. I gave 100% of me, my trust, my love, my loyalty, what I have, I gave you everything. I know Im not perfect and also put shit things through. But I believe I became better for you.

You became my first priority above all else that I sometimes neglect my parents, my family, myself. But you are just so you. And it breaks me apart.

It breaks me apart because I did not received the same way as I have given. And was easily taken for granted. Easily kicked out in the house. That I thought was my home.

It was disheartening. I am disappointed. Very

But I am just so done

That I want to be myself, my family, and our house be my first priority now. I want to reclaim my home. Myself.

I can’t and will never be able to control whatever you think. But I believe all my intentions are pure and true. I love you that it breaks me apart.

But I am just so done.

I am still hoping for your happiness. I hope that you’ll be happy. I hope you’ll grow and shine. Maybe and even without me.

This is painful. But since you kicked me on that house. I don’t know what I can serve you anymore. I am just so done that I wake up that I deserve to be treated right. Treated like how a grown up partner should be.

But knowing you. I know you’ll be happy. You’ve said this before. You can just live without me. You said this to me many times and though many times I still stayed to you before and do my very best because I thought you’ll changed your mind. But still I was kicked out on that house

I don’t know if my message has context but this is what I feel right now.

To be honest, I am no longer expecting anything. What I just wanted is for you to grow and shine.

I protected and served you all along.

Now, I’ll protect and serve me better for me.

That’s all.