My past experience brought me to believe that everything is decided by fate, now I felt unmotivated to do anything.

What is the purpose of doing anything, or putting effort into anything at all, if everything was decided by fate?

The fact that someone can do something, or feeling like they can decide something in life, is only because of the conditions that has been created. On the other hand, if you decided to do something and the conditions don’t allow, then you have absolutely no chance of making it happen.

Bear in mind that, condition doesn’t just mean luck, it also means intelligence/wisdom, physicality, societal norms, timing etc. None of these are within our control. By being hardworking and putting effort to grow the right conditions (ie. study hard, stay in good shape) can be your answer, but at one point I realized that being able to put in effort is also a condition, and whether your effort will translate into success is also not up to you, no matter how hard you tried.

So then, what is the purpose of pursuing? What is the purpose of anything?

This genuine question is left for someone who has gone through similar experiences, please don’t feel compelled to answer just because you want to instill some hope or whatsoever. I didn’t want to seek answer in real life because it sounds too depressing to ask anyone even though I see this as a reality now.

Thanks for your time.