my mind and me

I'm in therapy for past three months now, I was at literally at my lowest mentally and I have hit rock bottom of my mental health, so I forced myself to go to therapy. I had to meet lot of doctors and therapists for few weeks continuously. This was the time I had very hectic and demanding schedule in my engineering school. I had exams almost every week, and I was literally struggling to even keep myself alive. I had to go to my therapy appointments, where my doctor said that I have to keep myself first and my career second at this point. But I kept studying and pushing myself tho, cause i live in such a comepetitve environment , I had no choice but to keep running, but I messed up two of my exams. I recently got the results and I failed, I have to write them again. The thing why I'm even writing this is, I know I've been through this at one my of lowest of my life where I just tried to heal. I realised that I cant balance both the sides of my life. I 'm not talented enough for that. I know I'm tired, I dont wanna blame myself for any of the things I'm going through. I really hope that things will be fine soon. I dont know the whether the odds will be in my favor, but I just hope I survive this battle with my mind. If I dont, I hope my loved ones know that I tried!