MY LIFE STRUGGLING STORY 24m

iam more of a silent reader never commented never posted posting this the first time with alot of curage after reading my post through u will understand that why am i talking about caurage iam (24 m) an afghan living in a middle east i cant name the country 4 years ago i moved here for work the employer which i came for to work he is cetizen. my profession in my country was specificly in IT field i was an it at local hospital in afghanistan. my father which is now dead he sold his bike and send me here so i came to middle east for work the employer at starting was really nice at first day he greeted me (didnt understand the language) nor can write or read at that time the language was different the second day went to the place from the room which was not my room 69 other were also there beds on top of each other. i reached the work place in the office waiting after an hour he came with the contract he said sign this and u are in so i could not understand i was 20 y o at that time in 2020 btw i came when corona was little bit fading i signed it... thattss itt my whole life from that day turned upside down i didnt recived salary for 8 months i was promised 400$ montly instead he gave me 180$ o couldnt survive here with that moeny let alone sending it i was modren slave for 1 year i ran away from my job after 3 years more i could not send a penny to my home my father died there my mom is alone i dont know how she is serviving but thank god.. for 3 years i cannot go to home cause if i dont renew my work permit i cannot go home my work permit now requires more money than my yearly salary there iam telling this story not to get symphathy but if u guys could give me some motivation i can be good.. i started channel on social media uploading videos from yesterday hoping it would get me somewhere iam all lost i cannot type my story straight my bank accounts are freezed everything in these country if u ran away from work ur everything frezes thanks for reading